I never question myself, but now as yet another choice was imploding on me, I wondered if I needed to just take some sort of a break from humanity. Maybe over Christmas I would hike a portion of the Appellation Trail. I felt calmer just imagining the utter silence of the wilderness except for my feet walking through the snow. Now my ribs were aching through the gauze and I needed to sit on something more comfortable than the curb. I thought about going inside and asking to use the phone again but I didn’t know if I could face the pity stares and help offers from the nurses as I tried over and over again to get Risa to answer my phone. I told them she probably let the battery die while watching a movie and couldn’t find the charger or something. But now, an hour-and-a-half later I was starting to feel like just a damn fool.
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