grief – Ungrateful Bliss

Protected: Convincing Myself

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Ode to Odette, Remember that joker who kept offering up his verses to you at that dive bar in Santa Cruz? Remember that same night when we tried to sleep at the boardwalk and kept getting shooed away by that homeless bully? Remember when you made me swear to you that our story would neverContinue reading “Dear Odette – by: Chris”

“I’m Going To Brooklyn”

When I got home from my jog, Chris was back from band practice and making dinner. “Your mom is bringing Zoe home in half an hour” he said. I sat on a dining room chair and watched him in the kitchen. I couldn’t let this go on any longer. “Chris, I can’t do this.” “Can’tContinue reading ““I’m Going To Brooklyn””

All I Ever Wanted Was Odette – By Chris

Odette is screwing the kid down the street, Zoe has autism and I am getting gray-fuckin hairs. I do not actually know for sure that she is screwing him, but I know she wants to. We had not made love for months and then, one night, she suddenly leads me to the bedroom. I couldContinue reading “All I Ever Wanted Was Odette – By Chris”

I Need This

I’m crying a lot recently, but about Jake, not Meliah. I prefer crying over deserved, ridiculous, unfounded heartache caused by Jake than the utter despair of loosing my older sister. Jake is my distraction and my drug for curing my grief. I can’t let him go just yet. I need this.

Everything I Had Imagined…Almost

It has been easier to stay away from Jake now that Chris is being nice again. But this morning when Chris was at the music shop and Zoe was at camp, Jake just came and sat on the sidewalk in front of my house with his dog, Milo. I went out there and sat nextContinue reading “Everything I Had Imagined…Almost”

Momentary Bliss – by: Odette

Monday Morning Distraction rustles in a breeze that takes my eyes from her golden leaves. Shattering and shivers under covers, dark like a tent, Under salty droplets and shimmering beads. Papers rustle at my feet, a surprise and I brush them off the bed with my toes. They float down as though time doesn’t affectContinue reading “Momentary Bliss – by: Odette”

Protected: No Going Back

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Circumstance

Yesterday night, Sunday night after I came out from putting Zoe to bed, Chris wanted to know when I was going to be normal again. He put his joy stick controller thing down and said, “When are you going to stop thinking about yourself and think about someone else for once?” I contemplated pointing outContinue reading “Circumstance”

Drizzling Fireworks

I mostly just hung out with Zoe as the fireworks exploded all around our heads. She did well with the noise-cancelling headphones on and sat in my lap and played with my phone. Since the show was on campus there were a lot of students there and I found myself scanning the place for Jake.Continue reading “Drizzling Fireworks”