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Drizzling Fireworks

I mostly just hung out with Zoe as the fireworks exploded all around our heads. She did well with the noise-cancelling headphones on and sat in my lap and played with my phone. Since the show was on campus there were a lot of students there and I found myself scanning the place for Jake.Continue reading “Drizzling Fireworks”

On Display – Happy 4th

I think I have been over-reacting about the Autism thing. Zoe probably is fine. I made her a doctor appointment anyway though…just incase. Her Summer Camp/ Montessori School Teacher, Miss Jada told me yesterday that I should get Zoe “evaluated”. That was a great conversation. I cried. But now I am feeling better today. WeContinue reading “On Display – Happy 4th”

Run

I went for a run tonight. Lizards scattered as I ran past a sprinkler-puddle. I guess they were thirsty. I took some pictures of the cute houses around my neighborhood. None of these are Jake’s house. If he saw me snapping a pic of his house he might think I’m a stalker. I thought maybeContinue reading “Run”

Hello Weekend

This weekend I am going to talk to a girl in town who has a little boy with autism. I just want to ask her some questions and find out which doctor she takes him to. The online autism sites I have been devouring all say, “early intervention is key in recovery,” over and overContinue reading “Hello Weekend”

Dog Tricks

OK, after I wrote that post yesterday evening, Jake figured out a way to see me again. My cat was mewing to come in the back door but when I let her in she went shooting through my legs like something had spooked her. When I looked out to see what was bothering her IContinue reading “Dog Tricks”

Regressing

He was out there again this morning. I just drove by him. I’m too nervous to even look at him again, never mind stop the car and talk to him. Talk about a relationship regressing. Speaking of regressing, something kind of weird…Zoe hasn’t called me mama for a while. It has probably been about 2Continue reading “Regressing”

First Summer Without Her

It is the loneliest summer ever…and my first summer ever without my older sister. She died in a car accident 11 months ago. She was 9 months pregnant. Whenever I see something exceptionally beautiful, I think it’s her.