Hello Weekend

This weekend I am going to talk to a girl in town who has a little boy with autism. I just want to ask her some questions and find out which doctor she takes him to. The online autism sites I have been devouring all say, "early intervention is key in recovery,"  over and over … Continue reading Hello Weekend

Here Is The Short Excerpt From The Story That I Promised You…

OK, here it is...Jake and I are standing under the street lamp with Milo. Chris is inside the house playing video games. How are you doing? I’ve been thinking about you a lot.” he said.He’d been thinking about me a lot. “Oh, I’m fine. My head bump was no big deal. It is pretty much … Continue reading Here Is The Short Excerpt From The Story That I Promised You…


I went for a run tonight. Lizards scattered as I ran past a sprinkler-puddle. I guess they were thirsty. I took some pictures of the cute houses around my neighborhood. None of these are Jake's house. If he saw me snapping a pic of his house he might think I'm a stalker. I thought maybe … Continue reading Run

On Display – Happy 4th

I think I have been over-reacting about the Autism thing. Zoe probably is fine.  I made her a dr. appt anyway though...just incase. Her Summer Camp/ Montessori School Teacher, Miss Jada told me yesterday that I should get Zoe "evaluated". That was a great conversation. I cried. But now I am feeling better today. We … Continue reading On Display – Happy 4th

Drizzling Fireworks

I mostly just hung out with Zoe as the fireworks exploded all around our heads. She did well with the noise-cancelling headphones on and sat in my lap and played with my phone. Since the show was on campus there were a lot of students there and I found myself scanning the place for Jake. … Continue reading Drizzling Fireworks


It has been a crazy day. My mind is still spinning. I can't believe this happened. What am I doing? I'll begin with yesterday. Yesterday night, Sunday night...Chris wanted to know when I was going to be normal again. He said, "When are you going to stop thinking about yourself and think about someone else … Continue reading Circumstance

The Beginning of The Jake Mistake

Jake was out there on his hammock and I rode right past him and waved then went down some back little street where the University professors live. The "fairytale house" is my favorite. I thought about how nice it would be if Chris and I could eventually buy an amazing house like this one. But … Continue reading The Beginning of The Jake Mistake

Going Inside

So yesterday after my morning bike ride I was talking to Jake and I was feeling really good about being there with him. My anxiety had melted away and now instead of my heart feeling like it had a hand squeezing it...now it was pounding with happiness and I was so relieved to be feeling … Continue reading Going Inside


This is what Jake's alarm clock looks like:  So I went in Jake's house with him and one thing lead to another. I wrote a detailed post about it here for tomorrow.  It is a little too racy to just publish so it is password protected. The password is, mistake. To come clean and tell … Continue reading Reeling